So you stay busy, constantly moving, pretending you don’t need therapy for this constant anxiety.
You do your best to avoid being by yourself and sitting with your anxiety and without things to do. But you want to crawl out of your skin. It takes a hard workout to feel ok for a moment. . .but it's temporary. You just want to feel like it isn't a struggle to live your life and that you don’t have to constantly be distracting yourself with work, with outings, with the gym. You wished all the past hurt and trauma you have experienced would just stay in the past and stop smacking you in the face through constant thoughts and dreams.